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I’ve spent most of my life running away from the stereotype of what it means to be a Black woman in America. You know, the loud, combative, welfare receiving, neck rolling, angry Black woman with numerous kids by several different baby daddies? Yeah, that stereotype.
Instead, I’ve been caught up in trying to be the other stereotypical Black woman. The one who is always strong and has it all together. The sassy Black woman that takes no mess from anyone. This is the face I put forth for the world to see. It doesn’t matter that when I look in the mirror a scared, weak, and broken woman often stares back at me. I don’t have the luxury of presenting this face to the world. There is no place for a scared, broken, weak Black woman.
In an effort to not be seen as anything other than a strong Black woman, I’ve lived a very constricted life. I’m always cognizant of how I speak, making sure I enunciate every word and show off my command of the English language.
I’ve smiled and swallowed my voice because I didn’t want to be characterized as a bitch or just another angry Black woman. I’ve held back tears and pretended to be strong because as a Black woman, the expectation is that I can carry any burden on my back.
I can’t just be good enough. I have to be outstanding and acquire as many credentials to prove that I am intelligent enough and indeed qualified. I told myself repeatedly that there was no room for me to be myself as a Black woman, and for a long time I believed this.
Then something remarkable happened. Viola Davis took off her wig on national television. This was the catalyst I needed to break free from the idea that in order to be a successful woman, I had to stifle my Blackness and show the world only the acceptable parts of me.
Seeing Viola Davis’ character, Annalise Keating, sitting at her vanity table with her short, natural hair, dark skin, tears rolling down her cheeks with no make-up on moved me to tears. I’ve never seen a Black woman so vulnerable and raw. I saw me in her and lost my breath.
In that moment Viola gave me permission to be me. I didn’t need to wear the mask of strong Black woman anymore. She showed me that as Black woman, it was OK to be both strong and vulnerable.
Being able to see myself in Viola Davis gave my self-esteem a much needed boost. I no longer feel like I’m wrong or like I need to be more like this or that person to be of value. I’m embracing who I am which is allowing me to connect with people more authentically.
For the first time in my life I feel like I belong. Truly belong. I no longer feel like a second class citizen waiting to be validated. I know my worth and it is so much more than the color of my skin.
I can breathe now. I’m no longer suffocating under the mask of how I think a Black woman should be in this world. For the first time in my life when I look in the mirror I see beauty. I can appreciate my full lips, my big nose, and my naturally kinky hair.
I look at my daughter and I think about her and the generation of Black girls that will come of age with her. Because of women like Viola Davis, Kerry Washington, Taraji P. Henderson, and Lupita N’yongo, little Black girls can grow into Black women who know their worth and know that they belong.
These are the conversations I want to have about race. I want us to stop worrying about being politically correct and to just approach each other with respectful curiosity and a willingness to learn about others before judging them.
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Dana says
Beautifully written. People need to look at the humanity, as you so eloquently said, not color.
Leslie says
This is a powerful post with an important message of self-acceptance. You are a beautiful woman inside and out, as you demonstrate every day!
Molly says
This is wonderful. Thank you for sharing your struggle. I love Viola Davis no matter what character she plays (she really deserved the Oscar win for Doubt in 2009.)
Yanique Chambers says
Thanks for the kind words Molly! Viola is an amazing actress! I didn’t realize her immense talent until I saw The Help.
Mary says
I love this post, it is beautiful message for all women. Thank you.
carolyn says
Beautiful!
And you should feel good in your skin, all of us should, and that is the battle we all face regardless of color, size, education, gender preference etc.
Good for you on finding it!
We are all human, strong at times weak at others. Able to see clearly, then all muddled again!
Ahhh life!
Thanks so much for sharing! You are beautiful!
Yanique Chambers says
Well said Carolyn! We should all feel safe in our own skin!
Katie says
what an honest and vulnerable post. That’s so amazing that you found strength to open up a little more and push through “stereotypes”. Well done, and applause from over here!!
Yanique Chambers says
Thanks Katie! I appreciate the support more than you know!
Takisha says
Yanique,
This post brought me to tears! It’s very moving because I know all too well this very same struggle. This gave me hope! I can’t wait to see more of this from you. Thanks!
Yanique Chambers says
Thanks Takisha! I’m truly happy that this post resonated with you. We only live one life. We owe it to ourselves to be happy.
Kim @ This Ole Mom says
Yanique you write so beautifully, and eloquently. This post demonstrates your strength on many levels. You’re an exceptional woman and I have enjoyed getting to know you through our group over the past year.
Yanique Chambers says
Kim, if only you knew how much I have grown just from your words of encouragement and support. When I set out blogging at the end of last year, I hoped I would find my passion. Little did I know I would end up finding myself. A large part of that is because of our group chats. You just never know who will be a blessing to you. I am truly grateful that we have connected!
Jen K says
Thank you for sharing this story. Such a great message!
Yanique Chambers says
Thank you for reading and sharing your thoughts 🙂
Logan Can says
This is beautiful. I am so happy that you are content now in who you are. It must have been exhausting and felt like you were walking on pins and needles before.
Yanique Chambers says
Logan it sure was exhausting and I am the happiest I have ever been!
Terri Ramsey Beavers says
I admire you for your strength and acceptance of who you are and the stand you take. Stay strong, and it’s my wish that everyone would never see someone as the color of the skin but what they are inside.
Yanique Chambers says
Thank you for kind words and words of encouragement! It’s so important that we learn to be accepting of one another.
Debra says
Beautiful post. Thank you for sharing so much of yourself!
Yanique Chambers says
Thank you!
Nikka Shae says
All women are beautiful!! Thanks for sharing.
Yanique Chambers says
Indeed! We are truly all beautiful!
Lois Alter Mark says
What a powerful piece. Thank you for sharing this with us.
Yanique Chambers says
Thank you. I appreciate you reading
Helena says
This is such a great piece of writing. It’s so important to be you, and feel comfortable in your own skin, whatever the colour!
Seb says
Great blog. Accepting who you are is really important and being comfortable with yourself. You are living your own life not anybody else’s and you need to be happy in the life you are living. I love the point you get accross.
Yanique Chambers says
Thanks Seb. You are so right. We only get one chance to live this beautiful, crazy life. It is up to us to make sure we make the best of it 🙂
cuteheads says
such strong words and a powerful message. We all wear masks… But we’re all doing the best we can. You have a lot of strength and inner courage to share this! Loved it.
Yanique Chambers says
Thank you. We do all wear masks. I hope that as time goes on some of those masks come off so we can appreciate each other for who we are.
Tina says
What a powerful post! Thank you for sharing so openly with us.
Yanique Chambers says
Thank you. I appreciate you taking the time to read.
Emily, Our house now a home says
This is such a important conversation to have. It is not OK that you or anyone feels they have to be a certain way. I wish the world would support each and everyone. I am so happy you got to that place for yourself!
Sara @ Shabby Grace Blog says
Wow. Was a great article. So raw and real. A message for everyone to read. Well done.
Cynthia @craftoflaughter says
What a beautiful and empowering post! May your daughters and her generation of women grown up to be strong in their own right and feel the need to just be themselves
Yanique Chambers says
Thank you. If society continues to be open to embracing people for who they are, I’m very optimistic about the next generation of young Black girls!
Trish @Almost Sexy Mommy says
This is the most moving post I’ve read all week. I’m so glad you’ve finally found a way to be yourself!
Yanique Chambers says
Than you! It’s good to feel happy in my own skin and a lot less stressful 🙂
Renz says
Great article. It’s always a struggle to not be stereotyped and also to not lose your voice. And it all comes down to just being respectful of each other and what we are saying. How is this helping me? How is this helping the other person? How is this hurting the other person? All things we just need to think about when interacting with each other regardless of race, gender, religion etc
Yanique Chambers says
I completely agree. Respect goes a long way. At the end of the day we are all human and our humanity is what matters most.
Addie says
Girl, come through! We have so much to live up to and so many stereotypes to try to negate as black women, it is so hard! Despite how much people talked about and tried to racially categorize and put me in a stereotype box, I’m blessed to have been raised to be myself, no matter what!
Yanique Chambers says
Facts! That’s why it’s so important to build my children up so that they won’t let the world define who they are.
Erin says
What a beautiful post and message! Thank you for sharing this raw and moving piece!
Yanique Chambers says
Thanks Erin! I appreciate you taking the time to read it!
Jenn says
I thought that was a very moving scene, as well, just in context of the show and the character. How fabulous that you (and I’ll bet others) found in it the representation and validation you needed to feel more comfortable and confident in being yourself!
Yanique Chambers says
It really was quite a remarkable scene!
Di says
wise words, love your commentary. I think a lot has to do with aging. I feel so much happier at 43 than I ever did in my 20s or 30s.
Alex says
I don’t watch, but definitely a powerful message! I agree with your last statement about political correctness!!
Roxanne says
So beautifully written and an excellent message! Thank you for sharing it!
Shelly says
What a beautiful post! Posts like this one is the reason why I love blogging. It’s thought provoking and personal, which is what I look for in a good blog post 🙂
I never realized how much pressure it must be to try to avoid “perpetuating” stereotypes while still being yourself. What a delicate balance. But why should anyone have to be so cognizant about just being themselves!?
Do you by any chance follow Keisha @ The Girl Next Door is Black? She wrote a very thought provoking post about this subject. http://thegirlnextdoorisblack.com/what-emotions-am-i-allowed-to-have-as-a-black-woman/
As a Latina, I can relate in a reverse way. I think it’s common for us (at least Mexican-American women) to be raised to be apologetic. I know that myself and many of my friends were taught not to inconvenience anyone with our opinions, requests or needs. In that way I think we lose our voice as well. Therefore, I’ve spent my adult life combating that sort of conditioning within, and making sure my daughters know they have a voice worthy of being heard.
Thank you for sharing! Now I’m going to go mull over this for a while 🙂 (I love mulling.)
Yanique Chambers says
Thank you for your kind words Shelly! You know so many women of color experience similar feelings and it helps me so much hearing their stories. It makes me feel empowered and not alone. I do follow The Girl Next Door Is Black but missed that post. Will give it a read for sure. Blogging really has helped me find my voice and when readers like you leave such insightful comments it really is encouraging!
lexie says
aww dear I am so incredibly sorry to hear about what your feeling and dealing with on a daily basis 🙁 I am really happy for you that you were able to connect with that scene in that way. I truly wish you all of the best <3
karissa says
This is beautifully written. I’m glad you are getting to the place where you are more comfortable with yourself.
alexandria waning says
Viola Davis is really amazing. Such a great woman to look up to, for any little girl. I am very happy you wrote this and let us get to know you, the strong woman you are.
Siniciliya says
Beautiful words written by a strong woman!
Yanique Chambers says
Thank you!